Things have actually been going rather well lately. We're on the cusp - the very cusp - of living the life. I've been knocking on wood more this past week than I ever have in my life.
-knock on wood- Mandy gets the job.
-knock on wood- I get the jobs.
-knock on wood- We get the loan.
-knock on wood- This equals no more debt, our dreams realized with a few scant years, security...anything we could possibly want in the world, ever.
The possibility of this, it's a constant pressure of potential filling the air. I can almost taste the townhouse near Mandy's new job. Almost....feel the steering wheel of a new car under my hands while I go to my own job. See Mandy's smiling face after we complete one of her greatest dreams.
Then...smell the air of success.
I don't want this meager existence anymore, living in a closet. Things seems so close, we are just waiting the inevitable confirmation or (heaven forbid) disappointment. But I don't think we're ever going back...I think it's all forward from here.
I pet the soft bunny under my fingers in the now of tomorrow.
