This morning when I woke up, I found myself thinking about how desperately I wanted to send my consciousness back in time and plant it in a past me. I decided I'd go back to my Junior year, so I had time to say things to people I lost in my life after that. There are so many things I would have done differently, to free myself from the future that I now feel so trapped in.

I can't help but wonder that by so fervently thinking this, wanting to go back and do all these things over, if I haven't already done it. Created some amazing parallel time-line where it's all perfect. I don't know whether to be happy for the alternate me, or insanely jealous. Maybe I'll Jet Li it and kill all my others so I can be the One.