the seeming of truth

Friday, September 18, 2009

10:17 AM

i had a dream right before my waking hours. i was in an outlet mall in the bcbg section. except, all it was was rows upon rows of gothic rock shoes. i was in a dark heaven. even if none of it was real.

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Tuesday, September 15, 2009

5:46 AM

So lately, I've been getting a huge craving to just shop. Not the, 'oh, I need this piece!', but the full-out shopping spree til you drop kind.

I try to assuage it by wish-listing. Sometimes it helps, sometimes it doesn't. I will pull up sites and look for stores around this barren area. (btw...no Forever 21...ugh) And come up with outfits in my head that I need or want to wear.

Last night I kept myself up with fantasizing about what to wear to apply for Hot Topic. I think that I worry and plan too much for jobs. But really...in this horrible economy, what else can you do? I need a job, period. So I research for them. Still don't have one. :/

My outfit to apply is based on the whole minimalist model thing I'm into right now. Plain white tee tucked into a smooth black pencil skirt. Accessories are a turquoise belt, homemade chain necklace. Large black bag, studded ankle boots. Smoky eyes, pale lips and skin, uber curled and puffed straightened hair.

I'm digging it. Of course that can be mixed up with skinny pants (love em) for an outfit also. I want high waisted ones, too. Ooo.

Sigh. Need. Job. So. Have. Clothes.

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Sunday, December 14, 2008

9:06 AM

Red/Black Retro by Asfridr

I had a dream about that outfit. I'm totally getting it.

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Thursday, December 4, 2008

12:09 AM

Hi, my name is Addiction and I am a Food.

First off, let me say that nothing is more addictive and easy to spend money on than food. Many times I wonder if it would matter if we didn't have those little taste buds on our tongues or couldn't feel the texture of the food we were chewing. I'm sure smell has something to do with appetite, too...so let's take away that, also. Without those senses, would it matter what we ate? Oh, besides being good for us or tummy grumbles if it isn't cooked right...what if we all just ate health shakes of all the main ingredients and things our body needs to survive from the moment we were born...would we have cravings then?

Food is an important part of our society because it is one of the main things that all human beings need (which means other people can make money off of it). Because of smell, taste buds, and our delicate human reactions to texture, we can be quite a picky lot. Everyone needs good, healthy food to function properly. One could say that they kind of food we eat depends on what level of society we are in.

If you are below the poverty threshold, chances are you are eating cheap fast food and value mart canned goods (and you haven't known anything else but). Your lives are shorter because the food you ingest is not even really food, it's commercialized by-product. Can you afford better? No.

If you're lower to upper middle class, you've probably gone out to fast food places quite a bit, too. But you also eat in, and have the luxury of not only having the CHOICE to eat healthy, but the choice to eat better, also. Chances are you look down on poverty-level or lower lower middle class overweight people with disdain and judgment.

The wealthy, forget about it. These people are in shape and healthy because they can afford to be. Perfect bodies? A poverty-levels healthy meal-plan for a year in money spent on trainers and other things. These people can eat whatever they want and never ever face the consequences.

So...food can be addictive because it's the one thing that we can indulge in and feel good about ourselves. A middle-class family can eat at an expensive restaurant and feel a bit more wealthy. Food is important because to us it signifies our social status in life. If we eat good and without restraint, we feel better about ourselves. If we are penny pinching, we eat worse and look worse.

Food, my addiction...I crave thee.

Labels: chipotle, food, poverty level, social status

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Sunday, October 26, 2008

12:10 AM

Today...felt good. I mean, I'm not really in my element right now, but I am in a really good mood [despite my impending headache and my freeezing feet...yikes]. I'm surrounded by a sea of red: red hoodies, red jackets/blazers, red bags, red sweaters, red beanies and caps. It's the Ohio football psychos out in force. It's like one big huge fanatic Conservative American idiot convention in town.

I'm wearing my dark turqoise Vera Wang wool hat, hair in longer pigtails than I've ever had, doubled up black scarf, black sweater jacket, a vintage Kurt Cobain t-shirt, checkered skirt that barely hits the top of my thighs, gray tights, gray legwarmers, and cute black flats with silk bows on top of them. I feel AMAZING. My makeup is so cute...I shaded some old black eyeliner for a smokey effect. I've got my customary bubbly pink lip gloss on. Oh, yeahhhh.

And I feel even better about the outfit I picked up tonight at Plato's Closet. [They had SO many cute dresses and clothes that I wanted badly.] It's a blue sweater dress. I wanted these adorable bright yellow heels to wear with it, but we did not have the funds. :( Pooh. They would have looked fabulous.

After we bought some things, we headed to our favourite bookstore: Borders in Dublin. I spent most of my time reading Nina Garcia's eyeopening The Little Black Book of Style, followed by this very intriguing article in Nylon on Paris Hilton. I love Borders' new apple cider drink. Yummmm.

We followed that by heading to Cup O Joe where I sit now. Ew@Ohio football fans, once again.

Headacheee. And here is Mandy trying to rush me out half an hour early again. SIGH.

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